STUDY? THINK? a remainder for myself!!
wanted to blog yesterday but then raining, stuck at home. so yesterday, wasnt a good day for me, well, last last nite, which means wed nite, wanted to sleep early cos thursday, yesterday got maths mock test at 7am. mana tahu, everyone sleeping late. so i sleep first lo. then everyone in room, i am not an easy sleeper. so you guessed it, woke up half way. but wats worse i was out of breath. shortness of breath that i had two years ago just conquer my body again. felt hot in the room, dunno whther its because of the 'many'people in it, but i certainly couldn have a normal breath. so i got up and tried to catch my breath. and this i would have to write it down so in future when i read, i will remember it. when this kind of things happened:
1. always get up....was lying in bed and couldnt breathe properly, so must get up and sit up straight, breath slowly
2. always tell those near you wat happened, evernthough it may be hard to speak cos of lack of o2...at least ask them fetch the water for you.. like that nite, i just sat on my bed quietly and none was asking how was i. maybe they tot i angry or sth....but i wasnt
3. always always go out of the room, to get some fresh air....like last nite, just sat on the bed, no fresh air to grasp pun, cos i was lazy to walk out to the balcony area....in the end, go out baru feel ok....
4. drink lots and lotsa water...just prepare bottles of water la
in the end, i slept like around 2 plus, dunno who snoring also. hehehe....not like i can sleep if no snoring anyway.....cos i was still short of breath...then had to wake up early for the math mock...not compulsory but i just wanna go despite the few hours of sleep....paper was kinda tough....well, my mind wasnt really clear. oh well....
sometimes i wonder how it is really like to stay alone...i mean really alone, individaul rooms with all new housemates...i mean definitely the experience is different. you get to meet new frens and really be a loner in the room. staying with frens also not that bad..at least they are your frens since school time..and when need help they for sure lend you a hand. but i just wonder how i was if i chose not to stay with edine them and get a place on my own...i really am looking forward to that next time cos evnetually we all wont be going to the same uni and definitely you cant always have your bunch of fren with you all the time... well, not like i dun feel lonely now...i do, even though physically theres people around, but if you are alone in the room, while others are gathered in another place, laughing or studying together, isnt it the same as having a room all by yourself...when there are actiivties to do, you are never the first one to get invited but rather knowing it later from another person join them happily together. it just hurts at time when this happens like feeling out of place, left out not knowing wats going on between everyone and their latest updates, especially when you go to the same college but dun live together in the same apartment but same area. you tot they knew you and you knew them....i should rephrase that. maybe i tot i knew my people, my people means those i know la, not literally MY people ok? i dun own anyone...so i tot i knew them and they knew who you are, but i guess i was wrong. no one is always right about their companion, roommate, housemate, frens, buddies, special fren and even long time frens. and of course everyone wishes to be known, understood, cared and invited. so i conclude that it all depends on each individual,...some just can click together, special close frens, like they were matched and meant for each other like the bio enzyme model, induced fit model, the enzyme specific for each substrate..some just become normal frens, hi, HI, bye, BYE or some just know by face...it depends on luck and how you yourself give the response or feedback. i know i said all this before, friendship, companionship, loneliness, and also mentioned bout how friendship is so like a relationship...i guess this is just wat happens in our daily life and separation is always happening everyday, no matter its physically or mentally separated from the other part. i am not in my ups right now, rather in my lows since final is gonna start, sam is gonna end, means, my g15 will be over, and i hope that bunch of lovely classmates, i wont get to meet them everyday like before, and also at the apartment....no more staying together.....but that one, nothing much i guess since still can meet in kuching, plus not so 'fitting'...crap, i feel so horrible...now this is wat happens to me, when i dun study!!!! not studying, think think think and think somemore, come out this situation... geramnya aku on myself....
last but not least, goodbye to kl, next year hi again to kuching, back home with my parents and the small peaceful slow town. i dunno whether i like it or not eventhough before that i dread of going back home....its like everytime i am in kuching i always stay at home, rarely went out. and i know next year, its gonna be a hibernating period for me, i hope actually, want to get part time job...so yea, people, frens, those of needs someone help, tell me yea?? and that only can happen, if and only if i manage to settle all the stupid immigration and visa problems....annoying nya.....oh well, life's always like that. just got to take things one step at a time.
reaching end of year, everyone got test and exam then hols. us sam, starting 6 nov ends 21nov or earlier depending on wat subjects...by then trinity just start. after trinity, edines adp turn. perth and adelaide all sometime soon, finish earlier. and by 2nd week of dec, everyone is done....back again in kuching. hope to meet all of you guys ya? trinities most going back same week as me, one or two days after me....how bout the rest??? besides perth, nz??
so now, after lunch, at web, blogging,. went to check out the venus for our final exams. and also asked the office when roughly our certs are gonna be here. cos if we dun get it by ourself, we have to pay for the postal fee so i guess since 26 dec they are open, i am coming to get it myself.... after this, really have to study, START studying bio since i slept till 10 plus just now,...hehehe...tomorrow going sunway with my sis and colleagues, have fun with them at sunway lagoon plus their office team building programme.....so gotta sort of my stuff. will post more pix when i am done with my exams......my g15 classmates, probably my prom going on after that too. and ya, trinities...have fun for your prom tonite
1. always get up....was lying in bed and couldnt breathe properly, so must get up and sit up straight, breath slowly
2. always tell those near you wat happened, evernthough it may be hard to speak cos of lack of o2...at least ask them fetch the water for you.. like that nite, i just sat on my bed quietly and none was asking how was i. maybe they tot i angry or sth....but i wasnt
3. always always go out of the room, to get some fresh air....like last nite, just sat on the bed, no fresh air to grasp pun, cos i was lazy to walk out to the balcony area....in the end, go out baru feel ok....
4. drink lots and lotsa water...just prepare bottles of water la
in the end, i slept like around 2 plus, dunno who snoring also. hehehe....not like i can sleep if no snoring anyway.....cos i was still short of breath...then had to wake up early for the math mock...not compulsory but i just wanna go despite the few hours of sleep....paper was kinda tough....well, my mind wasnt really clear. oh well....
sometimes i wonder how it is really like to stay alone...i mean really alone, individaul rooms with all new housemates...i mean definitely the experience is different. you get to meet new frens and really be a loner in the room. staying with frens also not that bad..at least they are your frens since school time..and when need help they for sure lend you a hand. but i just wonder how i was if i chose not to stay with edine them and get a place on my own...i really am looking forward to that next time cos evnetually we all wont be going to the same uni and definitely you cant always have your bunch of fren with you all the time... well, not like i dun feel lonely now...i do, even though physically theres people around, but if you are alone in the room, while others are gathered in another place, laughing or studying together, isnt it the same as having a room all by yourself...when there are actiivties to do, you are never the first one to get invited but rather knowing it later from another person join them happily together. it just hurts at time when this happens like feeling out of place, left out not knowing wats going on between everyone and their latest updates, especially when you go to the same college but dun live together in the same apartment but same area. you tot they knew you and you knew them....i should rephrase that. maybe i tot i knew my people, my people means those i know la, not literally MY people ok? i dun own anyone...so i tot i knew them and they knew who you are, but i guess i was wrong. no one is always right about their companion, roommate, housemate, frens, buddies, special fren and even long time frens. and of course everyone wishes to be known, understood, cared and invited. so i conclude that it all depends on each individual,...some just can click together, special close frens, like they were matched and meant for each other like the bio enzyme model, induced fit model, the enzyme specific for each substrate..some just become normal frens, hi, HI, bye, BYE or some just know by face...it depends on luck and how you yourself give the response or feedback. i know i said all this before, friendship, companionship, loneliness, and also mentioned bout how friendship is so like a relationship...i guess this is just wat happens in our daily life and separation is always happening everyday, no matter its physically or mentally separated from the other part. i am not in my ups right now, rather in my lows since final is gonna start, sam is gonna end, means, my g15 will be over, and i hope that bunch of lovely classmates, i wont get to meet them everyday like before, and also at the apartment....no more staying together.....but that one, nothing much i guess since still can meet in kuching, plus not so 'fitting'...crap, i feel so horrible...now this is wat happens to me, when i dun study!!!! not studying, think think think and think somemore, come out this situation... geramnya aku on myself....
last but not least, goodbye to kl, next year hi again to kuching, back home with my parents and the small peaceful slow town. i dunno whether i like it or not eventhough before that i dread of going back home....its like everytime i am in kuching i always stay at home, rarely went out. and i know next year, its gonna be a hibernating period for me, i hope actually, want to get part time job...so yea, people, frens, those of needs someone help, tell me yea?? and that only can happen, if and only if i manage to settle all the stupid immigration and visa problems....annoying nya.....oh well, life's always like that. just got to take things one step at a time.
reaching end of year, everyone got test and exam then hols. us sam, starting 6 nov ends 21nov or earlier depending on wat subjects...by then trinity just start. after trinity, edines adp turn. perth and adelaide all sometime soon, finish earlier. and by 2nd week of dec, everyone is done....back again in kuching. hope to meet all of you guys ya? trinities most going back same week as me, one or two days after me....how bout the rest??? besides perth, nz??
so now, after lunch, at web, blogging,. went to check out the venus for our final exams. and also asked the office when roughly our certs are gonna be here. cos if we dun get it by ourself, we have to pay for the postal fee so i guess since 26 dec they are open, i am coming to get it myself.... after this, really have to study, START studying bio since i slept till 10 plus just now,...hehehe...tomorrow going sunway with my sis and colleagues, have fun with them at sunway lagoon plus their office team building programme.....so gotta sort of my stuff. will post more pix when i am done with my exams......my g15 classmates, probably my prom going on after that too. and ya, trinities...have fun for your prom tonite
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