i dunno

i dunno what's in your mind,
i dunno what you are thinking,
i just wanted you to know,
how i feel right now,
even though i dunno if you are gonna read this.

i dunno how you feel,
after we have talked,
after what i have said to you,

i dunno if i have freaked you out,
i dunno if i have just hurt your heart,
i dunno if i have just slammed a door on your face,
i just cant imagine what you are thinking.

but i do know one thing,
how i feel,
right now.

dun be hurt,
because of what we have talked about
because it is me,
who is facing the consequences,
the consequences of what you and i have done.

please,
i just want to tell you,
that i dun blame you,
for what has happened,
for it is no mans fault.

but i really can't deny that,
i am worried,
scared,
afraid,
that things wont be the same,
as usual.

i feel that
i have lost the connection
between us,
because of what i just said to you.

i feel that
i have built a barrier
between us,
not being able to meet
or even talk to each other.

i feel that,
you are avoiding me,
because of my words,
the words that may shocked you to death.

that is how i feel;
feeling of being avoided,
feeling of being unwanted,
feeling of being left alone,

that is how i feel,
i feel that you are trying to;
avoid me,
lose this friendship,
and never be as close as before.

that is how i feel,
after what we have just talked about,
and i feel bad
for causing any unhappiness in your life,
for causing any uneasiness in your life,
for i know it is my fault,
to cause you all this.

but i just want you to know,
that i hope,
things can go back to normal,
where we can talk
and share our ups and downs together.

i really do not want,
to lose this friendship,
unless you are really really hurt,
where you cannot face me anymore,
and do mind having me as a friend,
then i will let you go,
leave you with your own life,
for i know you will be happy that way,
and i will pray and wish you the best,
in everything you do,
as i know you deserve much better than me,

i need an answer from you,
maybe not an answer,
i just want to know
what you are thinking,
tell me the truth,
whether what i am feeling
is true,
that you are really avoiding me,
cos it is important for me.
please just tell me,
anyway, anyhow, anytime,
or should i say asap?

i am sorry ;
for everything,
that i have done wrong,
for every word,
that may have hurt your feelings.
sorry!!