Lonely, i am so lonely, i have nobody

oh well, sad title.....dun worry, i am alrite. its jusst the fact that i am lonely. lonely at home, lonely at school, lonely in the heart. lonely at home, home alone, this weekend, parents went back yesterday.......lonely at home. lonely at school, surrounded by frens, and yet feel i am at the wrong place, feel out of place, lonely, not knowing whether you are at the correct crowd, or maybe i should just sit the corner of the class and observe, lonely at school. lonely in the heart, thats the most heartbreaking one, not knowing whether anyone knows what i feel, thinking of sth, but in the end, what i get is a negative response, or worse of all, the answer is unknown as the later chooses to runaway, what hurts is the fact that i am lost in my world, wanting to know the answer but i cant, not knowing where to get the answer, still lost in my own world, wondering what is the latter's answer, still waiting, still hoping, and here i just wanna say, i am still waiting for your answer, even though its negative, but at least i feel assured of whats going one, rather than leaving me in puzzles, i cant face the fact that i have to keep on finding the answer from you if you dun wanna tell me and besides that, i thought you knew me and i thought i knew you, i thought you should know who i am and i thought i knew who you were, but i guess i was wrong, i was wrong about you thinking that you understand me and care for me as a fren, but what i just found out is that i was wrong. i cant ask you anymore as i have already asked once and i do not get any reply, i am already feeling sooo embaressed of the first attempt, and i dun have the courage to make the second one, i do not have the power to go up and talk to you or justto even say hi cos i cannot face the consequences of being ignored and turned down AGAIN, where am i a gonna put my face to and because you haven said anything to me, leaving me unaswered after what i have done, i feel decieved, being used being fooled by you , i really dun wan to feel that way, i dun wan to feel that way because of you , because of what you have dun to me, and wth that, i am still waiting for the answer from you as i really do not want to feel that, until to extent that i have to. i am still waiting to be informed on what is really going on. i really do not want to feel that i have a huge for knowing you as i feel that i have cos of what is going on, i just wanna say sorry to you, to you and especially you.
besides that, i am soooo dead, spm mock is drawing near, and i dun have much time, but i am filled with problems, unanswered questions, how am i suppose to focus on my studies, so please dun leave me unanswered as i dun think i can move on as you and you and you are still in my hearts no matter what. its just so sad that it happened. guess i better do my work now!