help?

its sunday and i am now sitting at my sis living room posting. so, recalling back, came over on thursday after school. friday, din go anywhere but lay at home at the couch watch tv and sleep. bet you guys are wondering why the heck did i come here for. well, i guess i needed to rest for a while. besides, i am the DESTRUCTOR. everything in my sis house spoils everytime i touch it. eg dvd and cd player. goodness....horrible me. then yesterday, whole day at ikea, ikano and curve., i guess my dad is probably gonna kill me after buying a heel lot of stuff at ikea. my stuff....reaches to 300 bucks. as i got home, my mum and i had a headache....not the normal headache but the headache on how am i gonna bring home all the ikea things i bought which were all big. i guess i will have to think about that on tuesday nite. at nite after we got home around 8.30pm, my elder sis and i went to haagen daz and eat ice cream. kena hentam la, teaches us the lesson to look at the menu first before ordering, dun order based on the menu board. so, today going to watch imax and later dinner at klang. i guess i should be satisfied with this hoilday. but as i thought over, i am now feeling ....i dunno......bored? i feel lonely....no one to really talk to. dying of boredom not physically but mentally. i know i can enjoy myself, eatting shopping but mentally and emotionally, i am dead bored and lonely and tired, i long for someone to talk to...not that i have no one to talk too but i guess my mum and siss and my bro-in-law are not the perfect ppl to talk too. i really hope for someone to talk to. but i guess my frens back at kch are busy with their own holidays, resting and STUDYINg. so i guess i dun wanna disturb you guys there. i know i am suppose to study but i cant. as i stand at the balcony of my sis condo, i looked down at the city, nice view but deep down i thought what happen if i can't see all that anymore. maybe if i jump down and everything is gone? i won't be able to say my last goodbye to all my frens. oh well, what am i saying. overall, in conclusion, i am just lonely, wanna talk but NVM. hope you guys are having a fun holiday....

last post!

hi there, it's two more days till holiday or wait, should i say its less than half an hour of contender finale!!! yeh.... i know who won already, checked the results, but i won't tell.
so referring to the title, this will be my last post
last post of all, for this week, this month of may, before the school holiday. but definitely not for the rest of my life. i know most of my frens are no more commited to their blog. they say tooolazy. but i will continue. well, i say its my last post before i leav to kl tomorrow nite. after school, i will be off to the airport so there's no way i can write again tomorrow.
so what should i say....first of all, today, is a tiring day. i guess the past few days too. only slept arpund 11/12hours for the previous 3 days. soooo many thinsg to do. tonite dun plan to sleep. moral is gonna kill me. but tahan for one more day la and then relax at kl. oh ya, today, got our pix, the passport size one....mine is not nice.....actually quite bad...dunno la. some of my frens say nice some say horrible. you know why...cause they zoom or focus it sooo near so its like my face took 1/2 of the size. in the sample got the whole dorsal part of my body. now only up to my upper arm only. and then they edit me, making me fairer and the zooming cause me to be fat...sooo fat! to say very very terrible, also cannot la. just that my frens say does look like me!
forget about that.....
since its my last post for the month of may.....
i have to conclude some things. actually only one thing.....i have to say that the month of may in the year 2005 is the most happiest month currently. i really loved the times that have passed this month. there's sooo many things that happened. my surprise birthday that was held by my frens....the telematch, i mean the preparation and conducting it and after the telematch, the experience and what i gained from it..... a lot of frens and esp one frendship that i will cherish. thank you. and then last week, we had our graduation studio model photo,...sooo sad,and today our last class photo with teachers in school uniform and then tomorrow, club. sooo sad. and then tomorrow also, happy me go kl first for holiday. its been a wonderful month. i guess my happiness comes from my frens. i won't be happy without my frens. for what they have towards me, make me happy and without them , i will definitely live a world of depression
thanks everyone. starting contender, so bye.. wait till next week for the next post. and happy holiday to all of you.

rough week

well, friday, i can;t really remember what happen. most probably i was still wondering which dress i should wear. and then sat morning got tuition and stella came to my house so early and i haven bath. feel so bad, ask to wait for me. so i ask to see my dresses. of course, she say my sis one is the nicest but i rejected that one already cos my sis and i concluded that i look damn skinny in that if i take pix. so stella say the brown one. went to tuition, practically couldn't do any work as the topic was trig. wanna die doing that topic. so after tuition, din go to pf's house as planned. went home lunch and washed my hair. my hair i guess is a disaster. so went off at around 1.30pm to pf house so we go together. i feel like an idiot having to carry my dress, as i din wear it from home for i have to take my passport pix. so, when we arrive at carol's shop, cikgu already waiting there and some of them too. my lil bro look sooo smartand others too. so i quickly took my passport pix and changed. i guess everyone was vain. generally, it took an hour for us to get ready, girls make up and boys finiding their suitable coat.so at 3pm sth baru we went into the studio and took our grp pix. i guess our grp pix won't be as nice as the 5c cos of our clothes' clolor. not well balanced. anyway, during the time when we are there, it seems to us that we own the shop. everybody walked in and out acting as if it was all our stuff. and of course, to make things move faster, had to shout and keep on pushing ppl. one i will never forget is when my lil brother say,"hurry up, cikgu want to jaga his anak". " some say, " he want to be good father and husband you know. have to jaga his princess and queen" really funny and that loosen the tension among some of us who were stress. carol was there to calm us down of course. so after the grp pix, individual one.. of course, who went in first? cikgu, couldn't wait to go home. followed by those who need to go early. so after stella and i took our photos, went to mcd and have our tea? dinner? and after that off we went to star cineplex. before that, changed, and cleaned our make up and my things my bro, sy helped me bring back, thank you. so we spend our 2 hour interval talking at mcd about.....personal relationships. dun wan to talk about it yet. so when at stars, i felt soooooo bad for not helping out. charity screening is joint leo and interact, i felt so bad for all of them. sorry interactors- kevin, sy and steph and i am very sorry zy, sandra and john for not helping. you guys can't watch the show in the end. throughout the show, i felt terribly. so after the show, followed stella back. before that, as the show as over, was supposedly to meet my fren but i guess the place was toooo packed and i believe we just have no fate.?? i dunno bout that, not fate to be frens......can i ever change this? well, we did meet for a while and later went back home. so back home, i unpacked my bag and list down all my things i have to do and boy, it was a long list. talked over the phone and din sleep until 2am?
sunday, woke up at 11am sth and i guess yesterday, i was working very slow. very slow. couldn't get my work done and i think i am losing all my brain cells. couldn't do all my hwk. so tues have to ask frens la. nite, went out to eat with my sis and family. going back in an hour's time. time passes so fast. after dinner, watched movie and stayed up until 3am today.
woke up at 9am? had stomachache after eating too much last nite and i guess i can't eat popcorn cos i have sore throat and all those common cold. got to finish my hwk,..... that is hopefully i can. later go sandra's house and then dinner and then tuition and then CONTENDER!!!!!
i hope all our pix turn out to be perfecto and i have to say everyone looks great that day!i love the guys hairstyle, namely sime, jack and my lil bro, and of course our own 5b hairstylist model, chun yik. dress code, overall, my lil bro, kev and jack in the white coat .
till then.

friday AGAIN....yes....holiday on monday

thursday and today is much a better day than the starting of the week. however, it is not to say that everything run smoothly in this 2 days. i did get low marks for add maths, made careless mistakes for sejarah and maths and did extremely badly for english. but i just wonder why that din really spoil my day.i guess it is the way i handle
maybe the song my fren told me to listen just took over my mind....i fell in love with the song istimewa, by innuedo. i just think it is a really really nice song
nth much to say, dun feel like blogging but all i know it's gonna a hectic week ahead for me. i already din have enough sleep this week plus next week....hm...i dunno
so list of the week:
TOMORROW - PHOTO SHOOT and STAR WARS
Sun 22/5 - wesak day
mon23/5 - HOLIDAY
tues 24/5 - BM PAPER2 - MATHS TEST
WED 25/5 - CLASS PHOTO
thurs 26/5 - CLUB PHOTO and off to kl.....
FRI 27/5 - happy teacher's day to all teacher's in lodge
for the rest of the list ....
8-10 june - Camp permai
15/6 - sejarah bab 5 test
16/6? - bio paper 3
till then......

what a bad start

was hoping that this week will be a better week than before. ya right........12.20am on monday 16/5 i just realised that my hope just crashed. i forgot to record the movie for english. great, i am sooo dead. went to school feeling bad. i din manage to record. told teacher bout it and she said ok. but i know i am an irresponsible student. missed the time and din record the show. now the class din get to watch themovie that teacher arranged!!! why am i sooo stupid and careless?
morning had bm essay competition was worried over the movie, did badly
so after eng, during lunch when i went back to class, i had another heart attack caused by my frens. my frens are really really degil and keras kepala. than edine, stella pf, dN, lik, bernie and shih yang for the present. gave me a badminton racquet and i know they are gonna say i can't use the excuse of not having one to not going for any play. thanks guys.
guess now i have to complete the freaking BM oral SCRipt! great, what a start for the week

wasting my time

the 6 hour course for the driving lesson is really wasting ppl's time, really such as waste of time. the course not even 6 hours, i think 3 hours only. and the other 3 is waiting time. my goodness, time very precious and yet we are wasting it to attend this 6 hours course. that's what i felt as i came home at 2. now, i have heaps of work to do. am test tomorrow and bm ORAL script. haven done it yet. ahhhhh!!!! stupid 6 hour course, sooo boring. dexter went too. pretty lonely. then, stupid idiot person go disturb me some more. ah, dun talk about it!!! sunday, new week coming. hopefully it will be a much better week than before. and kevin has posted some pix during my surprise b;day party. thanks kev!

:-( and :-)

friday, again! end of the week. very moody this morning. just dunno why i have the same feeling like when i had few months ago. whole morning, din do anything as audition of teacher's day was carried out. so everyone went down to watch. i din and felt so bad for stella as she teman me in class. lectured from her and after break, bm.....thought of asking my grp to do oral but in then lesson of fun and jokes. i am sure lionel will write it out so refer to his blog is good enough. well, moral teacher not here so we continued our movie. lunch, bio and bloody add maths. horrible. was soooooo tired and blur......not only me but the whole class. learn trigo. felt terrible today. no modd for anything. but godd news, monday no bio test but nth can make me happy now. even if i finish writing my script for bm. anyway, congrats to lionel and pf for violin exam. heard that you did well.
well, wondering what is the point of living where we eventually will die in the end. happiness is supposed to be achieved and not wait for it come. but how do you really know if you are happy with your life as happiness will not last forever. why must we live in obstacles where there are stages that we may not be able to endure. why why why
new list of dates
16/5
- bm essay competition
- add maths vector and price index test
18/5
- bm oral (arrr)
19/5
- sej test (arrr)
- sis coming back (yeh)
21/5
- 5b photo taking
- stars wars charity screening
23/5
- holiday YEH
24/5
- bm paper 2 test (arr)
28/5
- last day of school!!!!
8-10/6
- st john camp
15/6
- sejarah test (arr)
17/6???
- bio paper3 exam
tests not confirm are maths, bio full chapter test and ....etc. cant remember
till then!!!;-(

just a another day

well, today, is pretty uneventful. nothing much happened. most important thing is that it IS another gloomy, dark day for me. by the end of school, my head feel sooo damn painful, like wanna explode. i guess the st john camp is settled. 3 teachers going and 26 students. and i managed to change my point of view of hindi movies i guess. and i guess nothing much to say except hoping to have a much brighter day despite the test coming up.
dates to remember:
13/5
- lionel and pf violin exam (Good Luck)
14/5
- edine's violin exam (good luck) and chieh's party and HAPPY BIRTHDAY KIM HOON
16/5
- bio test on homeostasis
- add maths test on vectors and price index arrrrrrr
17/5 ????
- bm essay competition
19/5
- bab 3 and 4 sejarah test arrrrrr
- start of bm oral arrrr
- sis coming back yehhhhh
21/5
- stars wars charity screening
- 5B photo shoot
24/5????
- bm paper 2 test
28/5
- teacher's day and holiday begins
8-10/6
- st john camp
15/6
- bab 5 sejarah test arrrrrr

such a long list for me to do. bet with you this weekends hwk list is going to be damn long. hate most is not to study but to prepare oral script. arrrrrr

here's sth i want to share with all of you but especially to my new fren (you know who you are)

• Friendship with oneself is all-important because without it one cannot be friends with anyone else in the world
• life is nothing without friendship
• there is no better exercise for the heart than reaching down and lifting people up
• to achieve happiness, one must seek for it and not just wait for it to come

that's all for today!!!!! hope YOU will have a great day

Why can't just things get any better??!!!

today, started off well. actually, not really cos of a little st john stuff. had add maths, and teacher's mood weren't that good. bm had lisan discussion and din expect bm as i am not keen to do my lisan. so final decision, topic is gejala sosial and I AM THE ONE WHO IS PROBABLY doing the SCRIPT. hate it man. got so much work to do. then maths learn probability and bio got peka. about water intake affecting urine produced. of course, laughter fills the room when cikgu say have to collect our urine. luckily no need to do. just preparation. after break, moral, watch movie yeh!!!!!!! hindi movie entitled khabie khushi khabi gham. i love it. but of course, some of them dun like it. but i love it. very touching. guess i shouldnt spoil the story. eng, continued oral and sej study. by then, i was low. things are going wild for me. starting to get dissatisfied and moody. sooooo sian and tired. felt damn tired. then got chem lab. that's the time when i had my worst time of the day. dun feel like doing anything. seriously, suddenly. and then boring physics. dun wanna talk about it anymore.
i guess it's been a long time since i talk about my tv series. well, tvb, kinda skip most of it. like 8.30pm and 9.30pm in astro, love with no regrets and riches and stitches. 7pm aqua heroes in tv2. watching jealousy, thai drama at tv3 and english serial. csi, lost, john doe, and thrid watch which is tonite. and tru calling. almost forgot. final amazing race tonite. gonna rain hopefully still can watch. and fear factor, contender, and apprentice are still on my list.
ok, for all mothers. happy belated mother's day!
a short poem by laura leslie.

A Mother's Love

A Mother's Love runs deep,

more profound than her child will ever know,

it isn't until her daughter holds her own

will she possibly comprehend the meaning of love.

I never truly knew how my mother

felt about me until i held my son;

it was at that moment i understood

just how much she cared.

We finally shared a bond so common,

yet miraculous i looked to her for guidance,

and she gave it to me without judgement.

Her kind words and advice came quickly to reality,

she was my mentor and my friend,

without her i was lost.

So many times she had gone above

and beyond the call of a moher:

I wanted to say, "Thank You"

and convey how grateful I was.

For everything she had done

not just while i was a mother,

but especially for when i was her daughter.

Happy Mother's Day!!

Did i mentioned how happy i was went my fren, michelle gave me her present for my b'day??? goodness!!! sooooo happy! it is a note book with quote of life for the cover entitled, be glad with life. i was so happy with that gift as that was what i wanted and was looking for. well, tis also does not mean that i dun like the others. lionel, thank you for the cute, squessy bumble bee and chris and sandra, thanks for the jap, authentic lamp. really really love it and kev, thanks a lot for your lovely gift!! till then!!!!

first day after 17

well, today had a been a so so day.....not good, good and then not good. first thing in the morning was bio and then bm. great BM LISAN! couldn't decide the topic. then when we finally decided to do ipt, some one took the topic already. so change again and we have two options again and obviously me and ronald fought again on which topic to do. i guess we have no final words. other two members.....dun care! then english essay competition! what a day! i hate english language and could never do well. but today i guess i am quiet satisfied with it as at least i have sth to write for the essay. add maths, did work in class. and then break me and stella continued our talking session and she really really got "throat infection" today. a serious one if you get what i mean and also ulcer in hermouth (referring to cough and smile) and then kevin gets it too. oh well, we still continued our conversation and till the end of the day, it hasn't end. so probably continue tomorrow. so maths, continue talking then chem. st john meetng. felt bad for those who want to go for the camp but can't. really sorry. but on the other hand, pissed at som who joined just because of the camp! so in the end, give priority to the existing form 4 and 5 members first. hopefully new members can understand. but am pissed for those who can't. and after the meeting, bod continued to talk with teacher so went off around at 5.30pm.
once step in the car, bomb blasted. guess what! my mum was damn angry. waiting for me for half an hour. but can't she gimme a break. i dun wanna go home late too you know. not my choice. i mean we still have some conversation going on. went home and she tells my dad and both are at boiling state right now. great. what a day

9th may 2005 my birthday
ah, now then i write. yesterday went to school and got wishes from my frens. and presents from lionel, kevin and sandra and chris. my goodness, feel like killing them. got surprise party already, still give present, really really! bm was pisssed offf cos of lisan grp. changed grp. not that i dun like the grp but just can't decide on the topic. great. the brought my bday cake and share with frens. lunch was sooo busy. had to meet two teachers, school mag meeting and st john teacher. went home, watched tv, skipped tuition and practically went online the whole evening. and skipped contender and then do work.

Friday, 6th May and Saturday, 7th May - The two days that i will NEVER EVER FORGET!!

today is sunday and i will be writing for the previous two days account. don say i never warned you but this will be my longest post ever, i think. before i start, i would like to wish all mothers, a HAPPY MOTHER's DAY!

friday, 6th May 2005
it's friday, the last school day of the week. excited of course because telematch is the next day and my birthday on monday. can't wait till 4 pm where we are all going to prepare the telematch clues. told lionel about it and he too feel the same way. but of course, at the beginning of the day, i was worried for my english oral first. seeing the time that was nearly up, i thought mine won't be today and i prayed that mine will be today so i don't have to wait for monday. and thank goodness it was my turn. nervous of course and as i wento on, could see lionel's expression when i talk about the injections and all those. as i finished, everyone kept asking me whhy i kept on laughing and smiling despite the fact i was talking about my pneumonia. all because of lionel. so after the morning session, after break, mr lee talked to us, about none other than spm where time is running up. indeed it was. moral, we had to make a mother's day card. as for bio, notes is all that is.
again, lionel and i said to each other that we CAN'T wait till school's over. aids group having their practice and i will watching them for the first time and then off into preparing the clues. but unfortunately, sorry to kevin and lionel, i din manage to watch a full one hour of your practice as we had a leo meeting. however, i did managed to listen to the prayer and hero a little. loved the lionel's flute and kevin's keyboard. and i told stella that i would like to request lionel to play any song with his flute on my b'day and if there's a keyboard/piano and violin accompanying him, that will be great.!

so after the practice, sandra's group went to prepare the water balloons and she sais it IS tough. no place to put. kevin and other's who have chem tuition went off at 5.30pm leaving only me, lionel, john and thian hui. by then, it was getting dark and the school was soooo quiet. as we are about to start,
lionel: kevin, where IS SHIH YANG??
kevin: went home liao
lionel: OMG, HE HAS THE TREASURE HUNT CLUES
lionel was sooo dead and me and kevin started scolding him saying why din he get the MYSTERY FILE before hand. luckily, at that time, kevin could send lionel to shih yang's house to get the clue and lionel had to walk back. but he was lucky to manage to encounter kok ming's mum on the way to school. so at the meantime, stella and i went to get ready my run up and down game. before that, we got ready stella's things for her memory game. so, running up and down game, we decided to hide the five clues for all groups at the place but at diff part. teacher's table, board, door, sink, and broomstick. lionel arrived with the clues. man, he sure did walk damn fast and i decided to ask him to find the clues to see if it is ok. and he could find it but complain it was quite hard. tian hui came up and said balloons are done as they can't fill anymore balloons since there is no more space. so she went to find and said SOOOOO HARD! so after my game was preapred, we moved to treasure hunt. tian hui and john on the other hand prepared the obstacle course. lionel, stella and i decided to start the treasure hunt following the trail and it was tiring......soooo damn tiring...running up and down all over the school. half way through the preparation, vrooooommmmmm, rain start pouring like cats and dogs and we are dead meat. the balloons were places outside the school and may burst if kena rain so we abandoned our clues and helped to trasport the baloons. using my big tub and filling it with a hell lot of balloons, it was soooo heavy that all of us had to lift it up slowly. school was sooo quiet and dark. and the three of us went on puttong our clues. sooo spooky and scary.
going to put our final clues, found out that lunchroom was locked and that hussein was in charged for the nite. knwoing his attitude, we decided to prepare it tomorrow. nothing much that we can do. and it was seven pm already. wento back to class, packed and decided to wait for our cars. i told stella, i am soooo dead. how to finish preparing the telematch before tonite, going over to edine's house and sleep. raining some more. felt sooo tired. and so i told stella, jokingly actually,
me: stella, don't feel like going tonite
stella: no, you must go
me: sooo tired, haven finish preparing the telematch and RAINING somemore. sooo lazy
stella: no, you must go. going to kill you if you dun go
me: mah huan your parents have to go my house and pick me
stella: i tell you , nevermind one. you have to lead me to edine's house anyway. YOU MUST GO

fine, then.wondering why lionel too insist on that. i went home at 7.30pm leaving lionel at school making new frens with husein. and then had dinner and preapred what to bring over to edine 's house, mostly clothes and telematch stuff. if i din bring telematch stuff, i will be DEAD. promised 9.30pm with stella and sooo i waited. passed the time, and then saw cikgu jeff's message and he called me. luckily we talked before stella came. after that, no sign of stella and the my mum was asking
mum: is she coming
me: ya, of course. promise already 9.30pm
mum: what's the time now
me: maybe she is late cos we went home quite late just now
mum: had she come to our house/ i mean does she know our house????
me: oh crap. "i thought" i forgot to tell her my address or how to come. she know the are but where is it, i dun think she know
and there my mum starts nagging me why i sooo careless did inform her. so, i message stella, "are you lost" reminding me on LOST?

and.......story continues from here. ......i decided to stop my post here, found out that i have lotsa work and test tomorrow, will be updating it tomorrow. so what did stella replied me? what is soooo special abou this two days until i say i will never forget???? find out tomorrow. or if you read kevin's blog, you will know already.


i'm back.....continue from yesterday's post

so, stella called me and was somewhere near my house and i directed her. off we went to edine's house, luckily i roughly know the way or else, both of us for sure sesat. at her gate, saw phey feng's car. so we went out first and awlked in and then edine was there with deanne, melissa and pheyfeng, who just acme back from dancing. and then edine's mum wished me happy b'day, shocked to hear she knows. but not surprised as edine might have told her. and i said not yet. so we first went down to theliving room and i told stella that WE NEED to FINISH the telematch things first. apologised to edine and others as we needed time to do our work first before playing. so edine said used evone's study room to do work and off stella and i went. stella had to finish the memory game list and me the registration stuff. and then, pf and edine came rushing with the others saying that there's sth on the tv. and urged us to go down. weird, feeling puzzled i just followed stella down and went thru the dining room which was pitched black. and i saw a birthday cake and SUDDENLY, SURPRISE!!!! my goodness, was soooooooo shocked!!!!!!!! the boys were there and they all made a surprise b'day party for me. small party, cake, fries, nugget and drinks. still in shocked me......couldn't believe it. and we all ate. blew my candles and start to eat. not to forget, taking pictures. my goodness, hand was shaking and still couldn't believe it. obviously, anyone who knows me, i will definitely kill edine and pf and stella and the others for making such as hazzle. after that, watched joseph, hang around, talked and then the boys went back and the girls stayed back to sleep over.
MESSAGE to ALL MY FRENS:
thanks you to edine, phey feng and stella who organised the party until half dead. knew that you guys peras otak like hell just to make it succeed., i really appreciate it and hope that we still can be friends until the rest of our lives. thank you for everything you have done. melissa, deanne, kevin, shih yang, lionel, andrew, lik hui, zhi yuan, bernie, kiong kong, and benjamin, thank you for coming. and i am really really going to kill kevin and shih yang for not telling me. and of course, i thousands of thank you to edine and pf who came up with the idea and making such a hazzle. nevertheless, thanks to stella and kevin and shih yang and other who managed to distract me. others who din come, steph, chang mei, elsie, chieh, thank you. thank you everyone. and i will always remember this 17th birthday that you guys have made for me. friday 6th may 2005 will be the date that is never going to be erased for my heart. i hope you guys have a good time and thanks again to everyone for everything!!
Message to edine's parents:
thank you for everything you have done. sorry to bother you late at night, preparing snacks for us. very sorry to bother you, disturb you on that friday night. feel soooo bad for having a party at your place. and again thank you to edine and sorry again to disturb you that nite.
bongkar rahsia - they planned this for more than a week. peras otak on how to surprise me. crucial moment when arrival time where phey feng and us arrived at the same time and the time when i nearly din wan to go anymore. no wonder lionel and stella insist on me going. they also had to hid their shoes. they also told me luckily i din know kk could drive as his gen2 was there. i seriously din know that it was his car. i thought it was just one of edine's dad's car. no wonder, edine wanted to have a sleep over. and luckily they said lionel did not bongkar this rahsia as they only told him that evening.
so.....after everyone left, the girls watched movie. i fell asleep first. all slept at the living room. but actually, i din really really sleep. only baring baring. still know what was going on. highlights: the cd din work. no sound. melissa laughing out when she took pf pillow and lots more.


saturday 7th may 2005.
actually, only slept at 3am that morning. got up stil so tired. excited about the telematch. went to school around 7.30am. and oh my goodness!! things are not running smoothly for us!! the dome, our meeting point is wet!!!WET!!! how are we suppose to use the it if it is wet. so plan b, use foyer as meeting point and for the ice breaker. next problem is the obstacle course. 7.30am and shaun has n't arrive. so in the end, we set it up. registration supposed to be at 8.30am......which means i am on standby for registraion at 8.30am BUT......amazingly, most people arived sooooo early. lodgians and the st jo!!!!wow. never had anyone coming sooooo early. well, that's a good sign. proves how responsible we prefects are. so they register. and in the end, not even up to nine am, the telematch starts. ice breakers to me was quite a chaos.then, the telematch moved on to the treasure hunt. from there onwards, i was particularly lost as i moved on to jaga my game which is the run up and down game. overall, i think that was the most hardest game i have ever conducted. shouting four floors high and explaining to everyone. it would have a nice game and torchering for them until one st jo form 6 guy, hazz sprain his back when running up. feel kinda bad. but i guess he's alrite. then, kevin came to em and said the groups have finished nearly all the game and it was like only 11am. my good ness. we kinda panicked and the facilitators brainstormed on what to do. by then, i was exhausted. couldn't think of anything. so i told them to work it out, and i will just follow. at the same time, worrying and making sure that hazz was alrite or else later the parents come and find us. so, had our lunch and i couldn't eat. when there's sth to worry about, no mood to eat. after the lunch, had the longest game and facilitator's game. all this while, i was not taking part as in helping them but making sure that nothing goes wrong, practically just hoping that everything turned out smoothly. and indeed the telematch was counted as a success. although there is alittle bit of some disorganisation. made new frens and i am happy about it,. however, happy moments turns out to be a disaster when we had to clear things up. my game was the worse. involving cleaning up of 4 messy classroom after the prefects ransacked the class looking for their clues.
after the telematch, went to the education fair at 3pm untilaround 6.30pm and went home. bath and out for dinner. was soooooo damn tired and exhausted. and whenwe arrived home immediately went to sleep
basically, that was it. why i would say the 2 days i will never forget:
1) the excitement of preparing the telematch
2) my surprise bday party
3) telematch
that was enough to make me remember these two days. again, thanks everyone.

Sad/Angry/Happy/Excited

haven been blogging for the past few days. either busy with telematch or school stuff.
as you can read from my title, jumbled feelings are what i experienced for today! keeping it short:
sad - suppose to have bio test tomorrow and on my bday. that's bad enough. but just now teacher decided to postponed tomorrow's test and squeeze it on monday. sad because IT"S MY B"DAY!!!!! why why why! i thought i won't have to go thru test/exam on my bday again. what can is say history repeats!
angry - when i heard that the test was postponed to next monday, of course i WAS angry and frustrated at THAT time. why must it be on my birthday!. this means my sunday is gone just to study bio. but, now i guess i am fine. why? because i dun have to study like crazy tonite and at the same time doing my eng oral for tomorrow. with the test postponed, everyone is happy. so why must i grumble over it where as that matter can make everyone happy. i might else be pissed off at myself
-the next thing iwas angry at was lionel. actually, i was pissed off at him not because of the postponed test but HIM. why must he be angry at me or others too just because we are angry at him where as we should be angry at him for he has angered us. oh my! long sentence! takes a long time to understand. that's his only problem which i DID told him before but still couldn't get it.
Happy - overall, i am kinda happy for NOW as i dun have to study bio for tomorrow and oral at the same time. i guess my beban for tonite is diringankan. i am sure i am not the only one. those cracking their heads too must also felt the same way like. eg kevin and....sandra. now i can do the pix perfect i hope
Excited - i AM actually excited for the telematch. looking forward to see how smooth we all can handle a game. i mean it's all our hardwork. lionel and kevin organised until half dead and i too did help. of course, i dun wanna to see my bro's effort and mine too to fail. but again i questioned myself whether i should have helped them in the first place? i mean, i wasn't the official assistant for them. i just helped them. dunno how others feel. maybe they are thinking , this sherly soooo busybody or chap sou! oh boy!
anyway, i do hope the telematch will be a success. pointless if it does not run smoothly or fail whereas i did cracked my head helping to organise and kevin and lionel and sandra too. hopefully everything goes on smoothly. and tomorrow morning, oral!! i hope i do not stutter in front of everyone when i talk about my pneumonia. hope it won't be boring or long-winded. and also, i hope i dun get comments from shih yang and kevin again saying that they are watching the apprentice. cos if i do, it means i fail as my topic does NOT suit the style for the apprentice style. really hope i can finish my oral tomorrow. might not posting for the next two days. will be busy. tomorrow, staying back for the preparation of the telematch. coming home around 7pm?? and then,, edine wanna have sleep over. i dunno what the heck for. just said it is her crazy idea. hope she does not do anything crazy to me. din wanted to mah huan her actually so i thought of not goin. but when i said that, she cancel the whole thing, so felt bad and stella will pick me up tomorrow. rite from edine's house, saturday morning, off to school and then telematch and then foloowing lionel to mms edu fair. so probably be back in the evening and nite, dinner with my parents. celebrating mother's day and my birthday at the same time.
so all i can say for today and hope for the next few days, i hope things go on smoothly.....referring to my oral, preparation of telematch, telematch, cleaning up, dinner, studying for bio and bio test and also preparation for st john camp. adios! and happy birthday carol!! and val, if you are reading, thanks for the letter

Holiday!!

Public holiday today, replacement for yesterday's labour's day which falls on sunday. woke up soooo early becoz i was hungry, only slept less than 5 hours. so yesterday, morning was pretty uneventful, except i watched contender and managed to get the theme song which is soooooo nice. at night, went to carol's party. oh, before that, edine called and say have sleep over at her place on friday. when asked why she said she just wanna have it and said i must come since it's the last year. i dun feel like going.. not that i don wan to go but i feel sooo lazy. furthermore, that friday have to help kevin and lionel prepare the telematch. so tired. and they got chem tuition so have to seemy mood first. that's what i told her.
so at night, went to carol's place. gave the present went kevin came and when sandra came, i burst out laughing cos i couldn't tahan the incident when they bought her present. so, basically, during the first half of the party, it turned out to be our prefect telematch talk. then we eat and then time to go crazy.
1. eatting jelly incident - sarajane and charlotte started it and then kevin followed and then me
2. time when amy lee, simon and lionel got pretty high as lionel did jelly in the belly and then one of the guests saw it.
3. all time fav scene for me was when simon and lionel did the i-dun-how-to-say, their icon as brothers.
4. when they went in, heard that lionel became lipas and then simon spray ridsect on him.
5. then, they turn to be japanese model, taking pictures two by two like the japanese, girl holding umbrella
6. nonetheless, ian broke the bridge
7. others played basketball where there were this japanese students, frens of carol and i think our lodgian team versus them
8. and played twister too, first game, got this two jap play also. remaining teams were the two boy jap and amy and melissa. guess who won - mel and amy
9. actually there are lots more funny things happening during carol's party. got to read lionel's blog for this.
went home at eleven and what i get was scoldings from my parents. i told them i was to call at ten but my watch was dead and kept showing an earlier time. so went got home, kena marah and they seem to not understand or accept my explanation. what to do
and i guess because of that, they were kinda pissed at me, always going out and as a result, refrain me from going out for today. shih yang and lik had badminton and kev, lionel or the aids grp had practice today. were to go to see the aids grp practice but with this kinda situation at home, better keep my mouth shut before i cause a tornado at home and later cannot go out next week got telematch, if go for sleepover then to edine place and then mother's day and my b'day dinner and then mms edu fair. the following week, chieh's party and going out to watch the aids grp perform.so better reserve myself for today at home. can finish my hwk also la. hi yah, tonight got tuition but think on the bright side, after that can watch contender where some one goes to the er. and yes, i almost forgotten, got my recorded tru calling to watch.
i can't resist this. must comment on contender. the series is soooo nice. first reality game show that eally touches my heart. never expect this type of physical game can give out such emotion. plus the theme song is excellent. although it's only for a minute plus it manage to express various feelings the players had. their determination, lifes, fears, courage and all of it. sooo nice. especially when they start the game and then they play the music and for the last round, your heart kinda want to pop out cos you wanna know who won. although both are good there is only one champion and the music resembles the song of victory for the winner but for the loser, song of hope and failure. the show is excellent and the song is just captivating.
better stop now. will try to put in my blog the song.
happy birthday carol! my long lost chinese lesson classmate