Tuesday, June 28, 2005

sejarah oh sejarah

i know i am not suppose to blog right now at this moment, as tomorrow is exam sejarah and eng, haven study finish yet, but i guess i needed to take a break first. SEJARAH, not to say i hate this subject but its just a hassle to memorise everything for exams or tests. oh my, looks like it is gonna be a sleepless nite for me tonite and for the week to come. not only but i think most of my classmates are gonna have to do that.
problems arise, must not avoided but must be solved as quickly as possible. knowing that sooner or later problems WILL ARISE, why dun take an early step, be prepare for that problem or even better, prevent any problem from arising....and with that, sacrifices has to be made for the well being of others while hurting yourself. i guess thats the best thing to do even if it hurts having to sacrifice yourself to prevent things from happening but with others happy, i would rather do it for its too good to be true! answers are meant to be known by asking with courage but without it, assumptions are made which at times may be wrong or right but whatever it is, it is much better than others as it prepares us for the worse......am feeling kinda lost after reading sejarah book and lots more to come.....am feeling very tired, and sleepy really wanted a rest but i guess i cant.

Saturday, June 25, 2005

EXAM"S THIS WED

i guess there isnt much time left. exams is this wed and i haven started. die liao. edine and zy kept on saying cannot finish studying, i guess i am worse. they have started and said cant finish. what bout me? haven started definitely cannot finish. anyway, i am gonna take things slowly. gonna be hard considering that my weekend is packed. my aunt is here and sis's fosters parents. dinner on both nites. have to burn midnite oil then. in addition to that, flu bug is spreading around the class. always like that when exam is coming up. hopefully, i wont get it. its annoying. oh well, time flies. four months left then spm. the moment has gone but the memories will last. hope that everything will be going on smoothly now and forever. not to forget, bm lisan and eng oral after exam. lucky or else exam will have to be postponed. bleh.....

Monday, June 20, 2005

crazy

just dropping a word or two. crazy,.....teachers are going crazy, and we students are going crazy too. bm oral, physics paper3 and chem f4f5. that is nuts. was thinking of taking a day off after physics but look what do we have. why why why!!!!

Sunday, June 19, 2005

my mood?? - up and down

ok, rite now, i am supposed to be worried but as a whole i am happy. i guess i know the answer but not gonna say out. it is unusual for me, if you guys know me well, as i am the person who worries the most but and yet, now, situation supposed to be tense and worried but i am happy as a whole. not crazy, so i guess i will let you guys to ponder about this.
i guess i won't be blogging much anymore, at least after the exams. running out of time. maybe dropping a word or two when i am free. paper 3 sucks and i really hate the upcoming exams. last exam and worse of all, it clashes with bm lisan and eng. whihc means, postponed. sucks cause it will definitely affect our performance. another thing i haven prepare my bm oral script. am suppose to do the joseph pix for the mag. feell so bad now cos tian hui is taking over. feel sooo sorry to mah huan her. stupid pix spoil my burner and other programmes. why? too big the file and my computer not enough memory. but i get to choose the pix. tian hui doing the collage work. thanks and sorry again tian hui.
physics paper3 on wed. i just wanna rest!ahhhhhh

Sunday, June 12, 2005

NOW

why now?
why is it this year?
why is it this month?
why is it this week?
why is it now?

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how i wish it was earlier
how i wish it was still the beginning of 2005
how i wish it would happen long time ago
how i wish it was known earlier
how i wish it did not happen at the same time
how i wish it was not now

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whatever it is,
it had happen.
it is now,
now is the time,
that i knew.
although it did not happen earlier,
at least now i know
the truth.
it is never too late to know.
i appreciate it,
i am happy to know.
but what happens next,
i still dunno.
i need time,
time to think.
i dun wan to make any mistakes.
whatever happens,
i still want it to be the same as before.
it's just sad that
it did not happen earlier.

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i guess this is my thought now. not directed to anyone. so for those who read, its nth really. just my thought of the day about everything. myself, my life and my studies. i dun mean to hurt anyone when i say all those. it's just what is in my mind rite now. please dun take anything personal. and i want to tell everyone that no matter what happens, i hope we will remain friends forever. with this quote, i really hope to discover the enjoyment with each and everyone of you before my time runs out.

"the greatest sweetener of human life is friendship.
to raise this to the highest pitch of enjoyment,
is a
secret which but few discover
"
~joseph addison~

Saturday, June 11, 2005


Back home......so cute, jason and andrew taking a short nap in the bus. Posted by Hello

"Part time instructor for camp permai" as she was good in all activites, tiffany chuo was the last to complete the activity after helping to harnessed everyone. Posted by Hello

Cikgu Kenny, having a "good chemistry" with the vertical plane. Posted by Hello

Cikgu Jeffery Wee, in action, descending down. Posted by Hello

Two in one pix.....climbing the ladder, was cikgu kenny while standing by getting ready to rapel down is cikgu jeffery wee Posted by Hello

Cynthia Chek, although she has a severe phobia of heights, she was brave to have conquered the three-storey plane, having first to climb up the ladder and then rapel down. Posted by Hello

Going down!!! Rope was too small, nearly everyone lose grip at the middle of the way down. Posted by Hello

Me, first girl to rapel, but first, need to climb up. Posted by Hello

Morgan, first to rapel down the three-storey high vertical plane. Posted by Hello

Aftermath rancid andrew, after losing for only 3 time Posted by Hello

who's that.....well, our st john teacher, cikgu jeffery wee, giving his pose to the camera with his final look after the 'make up' Posted by Hello

Morgan, on the left, having painted on the face for 4 times while jason leading at that time, kena conteng for 6 times. Posted by Hello

Playing 007, sarajane and i kena conteng on the face at the same time by out make-up artist, cikgu jacaqueline behind.  Posted by Hello

Last nite, after dinner, we all played some games. Posted by Hello

The best part of the sunset, combination of many colours. from the clear blue sky to the fading sun and the red hot sun at the horizon and lastly to the calm blue sea. Posted by Hello

The sunset on the second evening, thursday, too bad it wasn't a clear day. Posted by Hello

Andrew's pond...which did not last long of course. Posted by Hello

Second day, morning, not my day, but definitely that's my name Posted by Hello

Alicia and i at the beach on thursday morning when others are kayaking. Posted by Hello

Friday, June 10, 2005

CAMP

back from camp....so sad......arrived around 3pm. gonna make a short story of it. i bet everyone is now in bed, sleeping after a short nap they last nite. or for even some, no sleep at all. i guess i was one of those who took the short nap. the camp was fun of course, but it would have been even better if i was in the better condition, and also for alicia and tiffany too, i bet. the camp i think has really strengthen the bonds between teachers with students and the form 4s with form 5 although there were only few of us involved.
so, on wed, arrived at camp permai. two cabins for girls and three for boys. i guess this camp was not so much of a camp if compared to when during pri 6. our cabin is not the wood one but was made out of bricks and inside, was much better, the toilet especially. start, ice breakers games. instructors for the whole 3 days course are mr. lanny and mr. kalang. played few games and then lunch. afternoon, obstacle course..... still the same, nth has changed. so 26 of us split into two groups, 13 each, carrying the king. my team i guess was good, really had a very good teamwork. then free time from around 4 i think to 7pm. so i went to the beach and walked along the seashore. tried to overcome my fear of water, ocean, sea, whatever you wanna called, which was getting worse. not even up to half of my body and i panicked. well, if only i was in a better condition, i could have walked down even more and try to submerged myself to the sea, that is if my frens are there of course. i missed the sunset because we had bathroom traffic jam. and the weather wan't that good either. watching the sunset is a must for me if i was at the beach. miss it that day. dinner at 7pm and then nite walk and sit. ok, lesson is dun talk too much in the jungle and dun call ppl's name so we numbered ourselves. last time pri 6 camp, was nite sit in a group and this time, no more, not joking, nite sit ALONE. we had to go thru the forest, very dark in one line. one by one from the back, the instructor stopped us and told us to sit at the designated place and took our orch lights. this means, if you are in front, you walk more, hiking up the forest but sat alone for a shorter time as the insturctor will collect you first and back down to the end. i was no 4, so i did had to walk quite far and the steep part, was tiring and couldn't catch my breath. was afraid that i would be out of breath but luckily i was fine. alone sitting down, was ok for me, peaceful, thinking and listening to the surroundings. just very peaceful, like that moment. only thing i hate is the mosquitoes and my ass was painful after sitting on the ground full of twigs and dry leaves. really had a great time of peaceful thinking for 45 minutes??after nite walk and sit, time for supper and then sleep. but i din get to sleep as it was just too hot.
thurs morning, exercise at the beach learning basic self-defence around 6 tp 7am then breakfast. i guess the second day was not my day as i felt i was useless and hopeless. din go for kayaking, as i was hydrophobis, seasick and last but not least , it was just that time of the month. if only it wasn't that time of the month, i would have went to kayak with my frens and overcome my fears. i guess it's not the time but i will gurantee you that that time will come. so, while the others wen to kayak, me, andrew, cass, alicia, tiffany, kok ming and melissa with cikgu jacqueline stayed at shore and play near the stream, building sandcastle??? and catch fish.as i say, it just wasn't my day. after lunch, jungle trekking. same trail as the nite walk, but much farther. we walked until the waterfall and then rest and then walk back. i guess the jungle trekking was fun. honestly, trekking in the day and walking at nite is sooooo different. both was fun for me. nevertheless, me the clumsy one had few falls and slips. after that, free time until our last dinner. so, i quickly went to bath and around 6pm, went to watch the sunset. it wasn't perfect as there are few patches of clouds blocking. but indeed, it was much better then the day before. as i enjoyed the scenery, i realised that it was one of the best sunset i have ever seen. combination of few colours. bright yellow, light yellow, then sky blue, followed by grey clouds that destroy the perfect sunset and then orange, the most beautiful part of the sunset near the horizon. addition to that, the clear blue sea was just perfect. it was just nice. and i always say, if a bost happen to pass, that will be even better and guess what as i enjoyed the time leaning at the rail of the cafeteria, a boat passed through and boy, i really cherish that moment. bbq dinner and nite supposed to have performance but no one prepared. so in the end, we played our own games. some chat and went the beach and catch fish. i stayed with cikgu jeffery wee and most of them to play 007 and those who kena will kena conteng at the muka by our make-up artist, the only girl teacher. in the end, everyone kena conteng at the muka using poster colour. the one with the most time conteng have to present sth and in the end, cikgu terkena. and he perfomed his taekwando moves. that time was fun and relaxing. a lot of laughters and joy and when time to clean out faces, i guess those who did not wipe of the paint will have coloured face and cikgu became the green man. went back to cabin and i guess everyone chat and had their own enjoyable time the whole nite. most din sleep or slept awhile as i have said. me, short nap at the couch at the living room. and miserably i woke up with a backache,a terrible one. went to the beach at 6.30am and just breathe the freah air and enjoy the beach moment. chris and shih yang were there too. and i went to wet myself although there was not much improvement. had breakfast and then rapelling.....my backache just hurt. was the first girl who did rapelling. dif from last time asit wasn;t the cliff but just a vertical plane , man-made one. i guess the cliff was much more fun. had to climb up and that was fun. rapelling down, for me, was ok until the beginning when i began to slip and i lose my rite hand grip to hold on any further so i just let it go and descend down. i guess everyone was like that. had the same lose grip situation except for a few. by the time everyone finished, it was noon, quickly packed our bags and then lunch and back home.
overall, the camp was fun for me, could have been better. but i really enjoyed it. three days just passed soo fast. congratulations to cynthia who was determined and worked hard and braved thru every fears and doubts of herself in all the activities. thanks to the teachers who brought us and everyone who participated. only thing i had is the INSECTS AND MOSQUITOES. my leg full of sandflies bite and whatever insect bites. soooo itchy. whatever it is, i just hope i will enjoy another camp like that this year, before i go. it was just fun, tiring of course but the enjoyment just could not be forgotten.
i guess camp is over and now back to reality. must work hard for exams which suck. not much time left. i guess for all form5s. our holiday is over last holiday before spm. back at my house, doing my daily activities, going back to the routine, have to study and do hwk. its just annoying. at the moment, no mood yet to do anything. my right ankle, twisted or sprained, after the jungle trekking after a few time i slipped and twisted it. painful now. mind, mentally is not working. tired, wanting a sleep but just not the time. tomorrow, a new beginning but still the same old saturday routine. i am sure most of us think that way too. short summary i say in the beginning, but in the end, soooo long. so till then. few pix during camp. and the song that my cabin girls edited fromt lodge school's song that we intended to present it on the last nite. nth else from now, till then.

THE SONG
camp permai, our camp
our camp with fun
and jungle's fill
mr lanny and kalang our instructors
very kind and patient
building courage from nite walk and sits
building courage from kayak and trekking
a better teamwork
a stronger friendship
together we make
together we gain

Monday, June 06, 2005

last week of holiday

i guess in my class, i am probably the only student who hasn't done anything about studies at this very moment. i guess what i said in my previous post all tidak jadi. so today, i am practically so dead....i will have to start tonite
and i mean TONITE! so i guess, i will try to cut down on outdoor activites including going out and all those unnecessary activities. can't believe test is just next week and i haven study. school is gonna reopen and i haven finish my hwk. and camp is this wed and i haven pack my bag....
ok, till then.....i will busy for the coming month. so bare with me if i dun update anymore...cya

Friday, June 03, 2005

i am back - so dead

i am back, actually two days ago i was back already but was too lazy to blog. i guess i am dead meat. bankrupt after five day of constant shopping and i am running out of time. running out of time for everything, school work and clearing up my room, not to forget camp in less than a week's time, how am i suppose to study???? exams is in less than a month. here it goes, how am i suppose to study if i haven finish my hwk, how am i suppose to finish my hwk if i haven unpack my school bag, how am i suppose to unpack my school bag if i haven clear my messy room, how am i suppose to clear my room if my things mainly my shopping spree stuff are scattered on the floor. in other words, how am i suppose to get all this done where i dun even have the mood to kick my ass up and do all these things. i guess spirit is important for everythings we do. i just have to force myself i guess. so, back from kl, bankrupt is the only word i learnt fro my trip. let's not talk about it. plans: clear my room, get things organise, unpack my bag, do my hwk and STUDY. oh great, got camp next week which means my plan cant really run smoothly. was thinking, today, clear room, tonite, my bro lionel bday party, sat do hwk, sun, out, monday tuition and tues study, wed to fri, camp and sat sun got tuition and study. hopefully i can get todays and tomorrow's plan done. if not, i dun even have to think bout studying.
so, today, happy birthday lionel. i know it's not your real birthday but since you are celebrating it, happy birthday to you. and i miss you too......from a week holiday of not talking or listening to my crazy weird brother. so, i guess i better stop here and start clearing my room. once cleared, i can get things moving. and i know time passes sooooo fast. its june already and i am less than 6 months away from spm. i guess what my other bro say is correct, got to concentrate on my studies and only on studies. priority for blogging remains the same for me i guess cos its the only way i can release my stress or a way to relax. so till then.